I don’t expect everyone to “get” my life. I don’t expect anyone to get it, really. And I know that sometimes your friends just want to look out for you, but sometimes it’s a little frustrating when they just can’t see things the way you do.
I don’t always paint the prettiest pictures. I paint honest ones. I like the situation to be real. I like to be able to talk through things with my friends. I’m not trying to convince anyone things are okay. I’m not trying to convince myself they’re okay. If they’re okay, they’re okay.
And they’re okay.
This is vague.
It’s been a crazy long weekend full of wonderful things like girls and food and hair cuts and boys and more food and overtime hours and afternoon naps and catching up on life in general. I worked myself crazy this weekend. I’m ready to crash.
My writing is suffering right now and I know it. I’ve got no time to spend in my head. My job actually requires presence of mind, unlike pretty much every other job I’ve ever had. It’s nice, because I’ve always known I was capable of going to work and using my brain, and now I get to. It’s sad because I don’t have nearly as much time to ponder words and phrases, and situations I can turn words and phrases around. I bought a ukulele and I’m playing all sorts of fun stuff but I still haven’t written a single thing in weeks. Maybe months. Which is fine. I write in spurts. But this is a new thing… and I’m not sure how it’s all going to fit in. When I have to spend my free time running around… when slowing down and tuning down is suddenly a difficult thing to do… this whole writing good music thing could get tricky.
We’re gonna have to see.
Enneh-who, I’m just wrapping up the most jam-packed weekend I may have ever seen, so I thought I’d check in with the interwebs and say hey, and note that it’s nice being home on my own computer with a nice, neat three open windows to work with. I mean, do you have an office/computer job?! WINDOWS WINDOWS EVERYWHERE.
i have dual monitors at work. and usually 10-ish windows open. and i would kiiiiind of like dual monitors at home. and probably triple monitors at work. i know. i’m such a GEEK.
i love you. i miss you. we should talk soon. even if it’s a good ol’ g-chat.
Ah yes. Welcome to the pack. You get used to it after you figure out which what goes where in the who now, but figuring out the ‘when’ is killer.
Tip from my end: schedule things tentatively, and cram as much extracurricular in the time you haven’t promised yet to people and ideas.
yeah… knowing what more than three windows open feels like (and no, i know catching up on blogs doesn’t count) would require having a REAL job, which i currently does not have.
however, it’s wonderful to hear from you and i hope that even though life is crazy, that you’re enjoying it.