Emily is my favorite.
We quiz each other on Disney lyrics throughout the work day and play Bookworm together on our lunch breaks. We sing obnoxiously and skip down the street and tell stories about working at the Cracker Barrel and stupid ex boyfriends and go to the theater to see kids’ movies and do puzzles and sit by the pool drinking beer and dance to the band and flirt with the singer when we’ve both had a little to drink. She let me cry just a little at work the day after my break up with Ryan and is letting me gush and rant and be completely confused and frustrated about the fact that I’m crushing on somebody else ALREADY.
There is a vibe. Is there a vibe? You see it too? What? EVEN OUR BOSS SAW IT? Good god. Okay. But this is okay right? Is this okay? What about the fact that I still go home and cry about being broken up and get up in the morning looking forward to seeing someone else? AM I CRAZY? I’m not? Good. I DON’T BELIEVE YOU.
Can we eat mac and cheese and watch the Little Mermaid on our lunch break?
Okay.
Truth is, Ryan meant as much to me as he did, and does, because he came along when I really just needed a FRIEND around this place. I’ve said that and that’s not new. But I’d have never gotten through this Ryan stuff if it hadn’t been for Emily because she IS my friend and she is a FANTASTIC friend. We have the same brain.
Oh my goodness.
i’m so glad that you’re finding awesome friends down there. and to find one so much like yourself.
honestly, girl, i can’t imagine how hard this past YEAR has been on you. leaving everyone and everything you know to go to a place where you don’t know anyone. then, to begin feeling homesick but still wanting so desperately to chase your dream. you are a strong woman, stronger than a lot of people. and buying a disney coloring book after a breakup CERTAINLY doesn’t make you any less strong. you know what makes you feel better. you’re learning how to cope and deal with real life on much larger and probably much different terms than you would like. it’s hard to have to grow up so much, so fast, and honestly, so alone.
i mean, yeah, you know people down there. you hang out with them and stuff, but how many are soul bearing friends? at least now, you definitely have one. you are an amazing woman, my dear courtney, and i hope you never lose sight of that. i hope you always remember that. you deserve only the best in everything: friends, work, music, men (probably in that order, too).
i love you, girl.
Great points. I previousally to spend alot of my time water skiing and playing games. It was quite possible the most memorable time of my young life and your content somehow brought back us of that time. Thank You